[via lookbook]
Sometimes I wish I could go 2 sleep
and never wake up
This doesn’t exactly mean I want to end my life
but I just want to be at peace
I want to lug my twin mattress
out to a meaningful public space
and take a lil nappy.
There is so much pressure in my life
Parents, Going away 2 college, expectations from others
The pressure to stay modern/current/relevant
Overcoming my insecurities
Sometimes I wish I could just ‘let my hair down’ [metaphor]
and be myself [metaphor]
free of the concept of ‘mainstream vs alt’ [metaphor]
because if u really think about it
there’s no such thing as ‘normal’ [metaphor]
and if u really think about it even more
there’s no such thing as money
so while I keep hearing things about the economie
being ‘in the shitter’ [metaphor]
I realize that we just have to pretend that ‘gold’ is valuable
but in all reality
that’s just corporate bullshit
made up by companies like Coca Cola and Dell Computers
Kinda wish we had a new Che Guevara / Joan of Arc /Tyler Durden
in the modern world
who would challenge society
and take us to a whole new level
where I wouldn’t just want to
metaphorically close my eyes
and metaphorically sleep 4ever.
Not sure if I’ll ever pay back my student loans
Not sure if I’ll ever own a home
Not sure if I’ll ever make more than $33K/year
Not sure if I’ll ever find what I’m looking for
Not sure if I’m even the type of bro who can handle a 9-5 job
Sometimes I wish I had a beautiful angel
in my life
to take care of me
and tell me that every thing’s gonna be alright.
[Photo via Pregnant goldfish]
////SLEEP /// 4 /// EVER
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//////////Reply by Marilis
//////////Posted February 17th, 2009 at 4:45 pm
@Jo, mon amour!
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//////////Reply by Adam
//////////Posted February 19th, 2009 at 4:57 pm
Sometimes I want to sleep forever as well.
I’ll also never be a real adult with adult things like a home, a car and no student loans. I get you.
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i understand this is supposed to be ironic or ‘funnee’ but it is getting a ‘lil’ bit too much for me to handle,’ like uff when she started doing coke. these poems about altlife etc. are so dramatic and over the edge, im not sure im still connecting with you on a meta-alt-pseudo-post-post-consumerist level. please come back to earth for us. you are the shining light for all those entry lvlrs seeking justice and acceptance in thier respective alt communities.
for every enterly lvl there is one that is fed up with it. k thnx.
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when i was training to be a counselor, we were taught that the phrase “i wish i could sleep 4ever” was code word for suicide.
do we need to have a talk?
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//////////Reply by Anon
//////////Posted February 17th, 2009 at 1:10 pm
@sam,
i think crls is fine, hes just switching from “searching for authenticity” to “searching for attention.”
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//////////Reply by el fggt
//////////Posted February 17th, 2009 at 1:54 pm
@Anon,
i think carles is fine on tha suicide front bit that sounds kinda backwards… like he should have had his attentionwhorephase a long time ago… idk, y’all.
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Carles, this post sucks more than Alice Glass at a vacuum cleaner convention. And she’s giving out free blowjobs.
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//////////Reply by Anon
//////////Posted February 17th, 2009 at 4:15 pm
@AlfInYoMouf.com,
i’m intrested in the grabbage at this event even though if my hand comes within a yard of her gash it would likely fall off from all the STI’s
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//////////Reply by INDIEface
//////////Posted February 18th, 2009 at 4:40 am
I just tugged to the thought of that.
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dont lower ur eyelids 2 die with the sun, crls.
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Carles is the Che Guevara online, on the internet. He’s just exposing the sulken darkness of your emo psyche :: the contemplation you know you occasionally have – he wants to acknowledge it before he can even dare *inspire* it. He is here to remind you of what you already want for your self. to simply fucking, authentically express your self! like the future predictions on a stock chart :: look for the next posts coming soon….he may keep it here even till March, maybe even till the Summer Sun. Reflective modulation indicative of the cyclical seasons maybe? i don’t know
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//////////Reply by Anon
//////////Posted February 17th, 2009 at 4:36 pm
@Mike Saad,
well che used to mean something until he was tossed around like a hacky sack at a music fest circa ‘98. then you went on and made him a meaningless meme. sold and profited on just like britney spears and hannah montana. its just another consumer product used to personalize an unpersonalizable self portrait of a modern day american adolescent. now if you would like to express yourself, maybe you should stop comparing once meaningful figures to a, albiet entertaining, meaningless blogger.
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i’m not identifying with you anymore carles
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whatever i like carles’ poems i give this a 7
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crls, with a few additional lines extolling the virtues of the “space age tempur material” you could align your personal brand with Tempurpedic (TM) mattresses via attempting to sell them this poem for all their advertisey activities.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlObZqhUWpg
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Really solid poem, your best.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_HXUhShhmY
stumbledupon™ this meaningful vid + thought of this post crls
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i think this post would be better if you read it out loud. like my creative writing class minus assholes in sweatpants.
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sometimez i will go to bed on a skool nite and hope i never wake up.
then i realize all my new AmAppy and fly thrift store threads will be going to waste.
i also want 2 graduate and hed off 2 college. so i mite as well get that done 1st.
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