I think about the person I used to be, and the feelings that I used to feel, and sometimes 'feel ashamed'/'embarrassed.' I wish I could go back in time to high school, and rebrand myself. I feel like during high school, I hadn't 'seen enough of the world/humanity' and I hadn't created 'such a snarky outlook' on life. Things meant something, since I didn't know what a meme was, and I didn't feel so 'insignificant.'

If I could go back in time, I would have done more to create authentic happiness for myself during high school. I would have done more to get people to identify with me. I would have made more authentic artistic decisions, and shared more with more people. I would have one more to convince every 1 that I was 'really cool.'

If I could go back to high school, I would rebrand myself starting at the annual talent show.

I would have tried to host my talent show, and been 'a funnie bro' who was able to mimic popular movies from the past several years that most of my classmates had seen. I would have been a funnie bro.

If I could rebrand myself, I would choose a meaningful indie song to play to an audience. Even if they had never heard the song before, they would like it a little bit coming from the hearts/souls of their classmates. I would eventually be 'cooler' when mainstreamers discovered this band and thought 'damn... that bro sang this at my high school talent show 3.2 years ago.'

I might dress up like a 'cool band' and sing a 'song that sounds cool' and possibly brand myself that way.

I just want to bring a meaningful song into a nontraditional context. I want to challenge people's notions of education/fitting in/everything. I want to brand myself as a quirky post-poppunk quirky bro.

Unfortunately, my level of musicianship is not very high, so I might have to play more complex songs at a slower tempo.

I just want to go back in time, and let people know who I am. I feel like high school is the last opportunity in ur life to 'be happy' back before you go away to university/design school, and u realize that u might never get a chance to perform on a stage that you are 'dumb enough to believe' is 'the entire world.' Back during high school, you were young, and the campus was just a temporary stop on your rise towards greatness.

Then 1 day ur performing singer/songwriter covers in a coffeeshop in a college-y part of town, and u feel insignificant. Back in high school, there was no such thing as 'authenticity' because everything 'just was.' U could be bold, and u could 'feel things.' U could do drugs/drink for the first time, and be convinced that no1 had ever felt this way before.

U could take some1's virginity, and tell urself that ur 'making love' 2 some1. The only sad people in your life were your teachers, but back then, u thought that they were inspiring. Now the thought of them/the level of commitment required by ur 'good teachers' makes u feel like there is 'seriously something wrong with them.'

Just want to go back in time.
and get an erection
back in my prime
before I became older
and realized the responsibility
and miscellaneous feelings
that go along with sexual relations

Want to look at a tween ass
when we are both 'illegal' together
before she gains the freshman 15
and starts a life
with low metabolism
and expanding ass + beer bellie + thighs

Want to go back in highschool
and get a 'blowjob'
in the backseat of my mom's car
after being the star of the high school talent show

Might also play a team sport