My bros left me behind and went on a journey to a meaningful music festival in Tennessee. Bonnaroo is somewhat authentic, but also somewhat 'jam band bro.' I feel left out. Not just because of the destination of a 'sweet ass music festival', but because of what I will miss along the way. Kinda weird how a lot of people think about life as a destination, even though it is a journey, and sometimes u need to appreciate the road along the way.

Feel like the Pitchforkmobile must be 'the most authentic RV in the world.' Probably listening to a very progressive/ambient playlist, trying to get a signal to tweet [via iPhone], and talking about 'who r u pumped 2 see live.' Possibly thinking about 'who they feel like hyping'/'putting on their shit list.'

Feeling left out. Feel like I deserve to be in there, chilling, being myself. Going on a journey. Bonding. Connecting. Discussing. Understanding. Agreeing. Disagreeing. Broing.

HIPSTER RUNOFF PRESENTS: UNTOLD PERSONAL STORIES

When I was a younger bro, growing up, one of my bros and I made a website called www.geocities.com/PitchforkinYall. It started out as a place to post pictures of bands + my favourite song lyrics, but eventually evolved into one of the leading music criticism and news 'webzines' on the internet. Unfortunately, before the website rebranded itself and started making $10 million per year, I was kicked off the editorial team for being 'too controversial' and 'too artsy.' I feel somewhat responsible for the site's success and initial direction, but have seen no compensation since they changed the password on our community hotmail account.

I'm not angry that I was kicked off team p4k, and I'm not bitter that they tried to hire me as 'an unpaid news intern' in mid-2008--I'm sad that I didn't get to share special moments with my bros. I didn't get to feel the excitement when we got our 1millionth hit, or when we got press passes to our first music festival, or when we planned our first music festival, or when we scammed our first advertiser into believing that our site was 'actually worth' what they paid, or even when we just got our first Am Appy ad. I don't really care about things like money/material things, I just want to know that I am living each moment to the fullest and have food + shelter + macbook + 3G wireless network capable phone. Wish I could have been there on the journey towards the top.

Feeling sad. The bros I never had. Feeling sad. Wish I could be in that RV.

All I ever wanted 2 do
was start a website with my bros
turn it into a viable business
and build a meaningful brand

Not asking for much
but just trying to 'live off the land'

then spend the rest of our lives'
managing our brand
protecting it, strengthening it
but ultimately
protecting 1 another
and strengthening our bonds 2gether

U need 2 learn 2 appreciate 'the journey', no matter what life throws ur way.

worried