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Hey blog reader friends. As you know, I have not been feeling very alive lately. I just thought I should open up and share what has been happening. I feel very sad while I type this, but a notable night life photoblogger in our scene passed away. He had pneumonia, but unfortunately, didn’t have medical insurance. He thought it was a cold, but he ended up passing away, since he just tried to detox his throat by drinking a lot of vodka for several weeks. Really just can’t believe he’s gone. One night he’s taking pix of you and your bros, and the next night, he’s not there. No1 knows where he is, but every1 finds it odd. After the Of Montreal show, we went to his loft, and found him dead in his bed. We took his body to the hospital, and even though we were dressed alt, we were just normal people like every one else, dealing with the human fight against mortality.
I got this tattoo of him to remember him forever. You can see him reviewing pix on his DSLR (he preferred Canon over Nikon).
It seems like nothing matters right now. I don’t give a shit what the best mp3s of the decade were, or who is the next buzzwave band. I don’t care about tween soft porn lookbook, or what the next big trend is. I lost a bro, and it hurts. Not that he was a true bro, but just being reminded of ‘how fragile life is’ just makes me feel vulnerable. I can’t believe I have to die, too. Just wish I was actually doing something with my life. I just hope that when I die, I am okay with it. I think he was happy taking pictures of people, capturing life, doing some freelance work for a regional fast food chain.
I miss him. Should I get more tattoos to honor my DeadBro, or should I just throw a ‘benefit partie’ in his honor to raise money for his casket?
Have u ever mourned this loss of a fallen scene member? How did u remember him/her?
Did he/she deserve 2 die? Does n e 1 deserve 2 die?
r u afraid 2 die?
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furst?
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Sux when peeps die. Hard to find humour in that. Weak post, Carles.
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//////////Reply by Hipster doofus
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 1:32 pm
@Hipster doofus, but I appreciate the vulns
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//////////Reply by skybeard
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 2:36 pm
@Hipster doofus,
not everything is supposed to be ‘funny’
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now that this blog is a brand its not longer relevant or authentic
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//////////Reply by jjj
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 3:07 pm
@MOM, Mom! Stop going through our families desktop history and writing on my favorie blogs! I need my cyber space! You are totally ruining my e-life!
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//////////Reply by picachu
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 3:46 pm
@jjj, d00d, jjj so sorry to hear about yer mom cruising hippsrunners.
must feel so “embarassed”. Anyway – we are true bros, so you know i’ve “got yer bacK’
H8 cool parents.
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lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzerz
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wuld b sad if there wuz no heaven. but we’ll all b there 1 day 4 one final ‘group photo’. miss u bro. can’t wait 2 reunite [via the pearly gates].
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RIP Leslie Paul
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//////////Reply by the fink
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 2:11 pm
@Brandon Ulrich, how’s skeet?
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//////////Reply by Brandon Ulrich
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 2:34 pm
@the fink, he just moved back home & we have to share a room……so that sux. He just booked a verizon commercial though, so hopefully it’s temporary
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this really made me sad. I wish i understood things
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Is this real?
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No.
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did Sidney Poitier die?
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my heart goes out to the DeSana family. Jimmy will be truly missed. He inspired everyone who crossed his path……RIP
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Hey, don’t think you should get more tattoos
mourning is inside, right?
It’s cool to give a benefit partie, that will help everyone…
Greetz from Brussels
x
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Is God/heaven real?
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//////////Reply by no
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 3:11 pm
@anon, NO
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//////////Reply by not
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 3:51 pm
@anon,
i want them to be.
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yeah im p scared of dyin
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the scene must go on
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Do Jesus tattoos count as getting pics of your scene tattooed on your arm?
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I’m not afraid to die, I just don’t want to be there when it happens.
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http://atlanta.creativeloafing.com/gyrobase/the_life_and_times_of_bobby_ubangi/Content?oid=893069
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//////////Reply by doox2
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 10:25 am
@monster, he will be missed.
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Do yall know what Michael Jackson’s fav tv show in heaven is?????
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‘Touched By An Angel’
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2 soon?
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i think oasis wrote a song about this once
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sumetimes i like to take off my vintage nikes and just chill on my friends grave on 4 20, i let the urff touch my feet, and i feel his dumb dead body slip into my pee hole.
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//////////Reply by sie
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 3:56 am
@some queermo, whur did they git ur vinty nikes?
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just cop a bundle and teach me the mainline
just wonder what the post-e-life will be like
whether my extended internet presence will be chill
just wanna have a semi decent flickr to perm-exist on
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seriously, carles, the first step out of this shit might be just taking things SERIOUSLY. stopping with the irony shit. getting into truth. getting into things because they actually make a lot of sense. actually LEARNING with the wtf that dying is.
you people (americans (and hipsters)) recently had this great writer, that guy who went by the name of david foster wallace and who killed himself last year, saying the whole wtf of your modern culture with irony and how people don`t give a fuck about saying what they really mean anymore. i frequently think that one of the main reasons for him, dfw, making that choice was this hopeless fucked up modern world into which you get people almost saying, as he once put it, ‘how totally banal of you to ask what i really mean’.
dude, i dont know, you may even get religious, but get serious — at least with death you should get serious, real serious. irony is not the fucking meaning of your life. irony was mainly an instrument to humiliate deceitful sons of bitches and not for you to turn your head upside down.
even now you seem remarkably ironical in this post — and with your tattoo — with something that you shoudn’t be.
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//////////Reply by the altest
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 5:42 pm
@friendable, Stop abusing DFW’s death to go on your little gay rants.
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//////////Reply by friendable
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 5:49 pm
@the altest, oh right, im the one abusing something. and thats it. gay rants. right.
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//////////Reply by BOZ`
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 6:47 pm
Ironical? @friendable,
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//////////Reply by Brandon Ulrich
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 8:12 pm
@friendable, plz tell me wtf dying is.
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//////////Reply by friendable
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 4:09 am
@Brandon Ulrich, i can only think you misread me on purpose. i said learning with the wtf that dying is.
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//////////Reply by hoping
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 9:02 pm
@friendable, you shouldn’t depend on other people to have the qualities you want more people to have. “an instrument to humiliate deceitful sons of bitches”? ‘this shit’ is usually the result of fear and makes things like ‘irony shit’ widespread.
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//////////Reply by friendable
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 4:34 am
@hoping, you have a point, but i think you have a point except for the ‘usually’ there. and also what i meant was that irony is an instrument, a blunt instrument. you dont draw meaning for the rest of your life from that, at least you certainly shouldn’t. irony is almost like violence in some way — it may just be like violence in the sense that it should something like a last resort or one of the last resorts.
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//////////Reply by xoxo
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 9:24 am
have you ever heard the phrase cutting irony? sharp wit? it’s stupidity that’s a blunt instrument, and you’re bludgeoning us with it right now.
//////////Reply by skybeard
//////////Posted August 17th, 2009 at 9:24 pm
@friendable,
life is srs bsns guys
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//////////Reply by august
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 1:55 am
@friendable, so confused rite now, just searching 4 meaning in ur comment
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//////////Reply by friendable
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 4:06 am
@august, e.g. can you imagine like ‘normal people’ entering here and reading this post? i do think you would get my point by the reaction of the ‘normal guy’ or the ‘normal girl’ reading something like ‘I don’t give a shit what the best mp3s of the decade were, or who is the next buzzwave band. I don’t care about tween soft porn lookbook, or what the next big trend is.’
i know you people care a lot about stuff like that, but i can only imagine that ‘normal person’ — e.g. a guy who has a job, a family, doesn’t do lots of/doesn’t do drugs — going ‘why he did care about that in the first place?’
is there any meaning in being trendy and cool? do people really need all that vanity?
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and, yes, i’m also afraid of dying. my father died when i was 16 and still i can’t possibly imagine him dead. i talk to my brother and he thinks the same, he thinks that he is somewhere hiding — from the law, from gangsters, the stuff we imagine when we get to dream about him. but i’m also afraid of dying like an idiot, dying and having lived a stupid life. i really want to care about the right stuff, i dont want to waste time.
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//////////Reply by xoxo
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 9:20 am
I really wish your dad hadn’t died cuz then you might not feel the need to troll this website.
//////////Reply by august
//////////Posted August 18th, 2009 at 11:01 pm
@friendable, do you know that you can lead a full and inspiring life and have a brilliant career and be spiritually grounded, AND care about fashion AND read this website for a satirical dose of comic wit?.
I know, weird huh?
//////////Reply by Rene
//////////Posted August 19th, 2009 at 9:45 am
Carles killed DFW.
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Pour out one of my saved cans of real sparks for my fallen bro. That’s what I would do.
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u should host a benny party and then get all upset abt ‘how u knew him b4 it was cool’ and get all drunk and weepy and then play ‘do you realize??’ on repeat until everyone leaves and you can steal the donated money because deadmen buy no dunks/drink no sparks/smoke no parlis/toot no bumps/need no bros
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diff voice, carles
sounds like a grl wrote this
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it’s a shame he couldn’t give more. i think it’s honorable to sort of die amongst your tribe. i think people have the right idea and it’s what your friend would want-mourn a little, drink some tecate, say a solemn ‘werd’-and then get right back to business. if anything do not slow down in the mp3/fashion/blogosphere.
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Not that I’m looking for a place to get attention or ‘pour my heart out to’ but if this shit is real, then you should talk about it with yo other scene members.
A really good friend of mine died in the Metro freak accident in LA. She was 17. I know it’s depressing as all hell, but I can’t make it funny or lighten the mood, because that’s just the way it is sometimes.
You should talk to people about him, stories, good times. Helped me. Maybe alt kids dont throw funerals, but hey they’re people too right?
Partieing fo yo friend sounds good too.
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@xoxo, will u be my friend? 8)
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chuck, Sux that your photo friend could’nt figure out that he was dying for several months. maybe smarter friends would have helped.
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its to bad we dont have universal health coverage.
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