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Sometimes I have crazy nites and I drink a lil bit too much.
Putting so much alcohol in my body to run away from the pain
the pain of my childhood, my parents' divorce
Feeling 'left out', unloved, and misunderstood for so much of my life
until I finally reached a place filled with alternative young people
who have the same interests + goals as me

Some nights, I just drink and drink and drink and drink
like the more I drink, the more fun I will have
the more I drink, the more people will like me
the more I drink, the more authentic my life will become

But then it all backfires
and my tummie starts to feel sillie
I start thinking about what I ate today
'U only had Chili's, but that was 12 hours ago.'

Was my body really ready to handle a chugalug of beer / liquor / wine /absynthe / etc
Is my stomach in panic mode?
Did I push too hard to make this night meaningful?
Will I regret this in the morning if I don't force my body to eject the excess alcohol and sugar?

Excuse myself from my friends & the party hosts
Stepping outside into a desolate alley
putting my finger down my throat
hoping a thick stream of alcohol / vomit will flow from my mouth.

Dry heave
Tears running down my face, eyes popping out of sockets
I can feel a warm stew of vomit coming down my food pipe
I made a mistake.

'thar she blows' I think as the vomit shoots from my mouth
Try my best to clear out my stomach
the more I eject, the better I will feel?

I vomited
all over my shoes
hunched over like a pathentic loser
while inside, the relevant party / concert / art opening / show continues
but I was just 1 bro
who drank 2 much 2 fast
didn't eat enough

Don't really feel as good as I thought I would
even though I threw up
and totally ruined my shoes

(gonna be a bitch to clean them tomorrow)
Does n e 1 know how I can get vomit off my shoes?

Maybe I am just another 'drunk girl' [via LCD Soundsystem]
Maybe alcohol is bad 4 u
Maybe I should only eat organic products
Maybe I need 2 be more careful

Trying to live life 2 the fullest
Trying 2 drink enough 2 forget
'I made a lot of mistakes' -Sufjan Stevens

Have u ever forced yourself to throw up when you got too drunk?
What is the zaniest food / beverage that you have thrown up?
What is the most authentic venue to throw up at?
Have you ever thrown up on a buzzband during a concert?
Do u have any tips for holding down ur alcohol?