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Sometimes I wonder why I'm still in this relationship. I don't even know what to do any more. It's like we've done every possible 'couple-based activity' available, and we ended up at this theme park, and now this bro is drawing a zany caricature portrait of us. I feel incredibly average. I feel like I have merged my brand with some one, and we have become a forgettable entity.

What are you supposed to do when you are in a relationship? What 'fun' things can you really do? Go out to eat? Go out to eat? Go out to eat? Go somewhere lame that other couples go 2? Go out to eat? Go out to eat? Run an errand with your significant other when you would rather be doing something else? Go out to eat? Go out to eat? Make dinner 'together.' Eat in silence. Watch TV. Go out to eat? See some movie? Grow old? Get fat? Go out to eat? Have kids? Go out to eat?

I think about the days at the beginning of our relationship. I'm not the most romantic person in the world. But I really felt alive. I really felt like I was 'in it 4 the right reasons.' I felt happy. I felt like I was with the right person. Now I don't know so much any more. Sure there are tons of cliched stories about 'the fire' leaving a relationship as you grow older, and how that may or may not be beautiful. But I'm scared. I'm scared that I will be attached 2 this person 4 the rest of my life.

I feel so much pressure in this relationship. I am supposed to be creating a meaningful experience with some1--but I feel like a complete failure. I'm not sure what 2 do any more. Should I 'stay loyal' 2 this person because we have bonded together, cried 2gether, gone out 2 eat a bunch of times together and 'experienced life 2gether', or can I pursue a meaningful existence without this person? Can I be happy 'alone'? Am I wasting my time & my life with this person? Do I deeply resent this person? Does my love for them override my deep resentment of them?

I don't just feel tired of the person I am in a relationship with. I feel tired of myself, not just 'myself' in the context of this relationship, but I feel tired of 'myself.' A coward--I say I am 'unhappy' but I don't have the balls/energy/etc to either 'end it' or 'make the situation better.'

What are couples supposed 2 'do'?
Is there such thing as a 'happy couple'?
Are you in a dead-end relationships?
Have u 'lost urself'?
Do u 'h8' ur partner?
Does the thought of 'growing old' with some1 seem 'appealing 2 u' in the twilight of ur 20something-years?
Were you in a 'dead end' relationship that u got out of. R u happier now, or sadder?
What is 'the point' of being in a relationship?
Do 2 ppl 'belong 2gether' or is every1 supposed 2 be alone?
Does every1 in a relationship turn in2 a lamestreamer mainstreamer, or can u stay interesting, alt, and authentic?

'This is life.'
-a human