I am the lil alt. The mini alt. The lil-est alt.
Learned how to be alt at a young age
with the help of my older sister
I am young, with my entire life ahead of me
many years to evolve into the perfect personal brand
but today I am young
I am alt
I am small
but my heart is strong
I am sure of myself

The kids at school do not ‘get’ me
But I have learned that is a good thing
I am oblivious to the tween sensations that mnstrm kidz are in2
(had to google ‘Kanyegate’)
I am literally the youngest person in the world to genuinely appreciate The Dirty Projectors

I will start a mp3 blog 4 kids by kids
carrying the alternative torch to make the kids scene
a lot better 4 every1
There’s just so much more to the world than Disney bullshit

I am proud.

One day I will be an old man
on my death bed
looking back on the life that I had
so many missed connections and casual encounters
I will look back on my youth
and smile

A large grin for my alternative innerchild.
I am the lil alt
The embodiment of the alternative spirit.

(miss u. say hi 2 Heath 4 me in meme heaven)

U cannot put out
the flame
of the alternative fire
in a tru alt.

So much alt in such a lil alt.

///learning how 2 blog again….
-crls

We went on a family vacay when I was 10
to chill in the Grand Canyon and New Mexico
We stopped at a gift shop on an ‘Injun’ Reservation
and my parents encouraged me to buy ‘a bag of kewl looking rocks’
and a gadget called ‘a dream catcher.’

Don’t be afraid to dream.
There’s nothing wrong with ‘being a dreamer.’

Do u have a dreamcatcher necklace?

I remember in the popular movie Forrest Gump,
Tom Hanks and Jenny say ‘make me a bird, so I can fly far, far away’
as Jenny tries to escape from her father’s physical and sexual abuse
Eventually she ‘becomes a slut’ when she grows up
and in a way she sort of became a bird
and flew far, far away from ‘innocence’ [via dying of AIDS]

All we are
are alts in the wind…

I am just trying to create an authentic life for myself.
I am just trying to fill up my apartment with meaningful items.
I am just trying to create authentic art.
I am just collecting some cameras from different eras.
I am just enjoying a beer, relaxing.
I am just collecting old magazines with pictures of nature/old stuff
I am just mashing up genres of music.
I am just sitting on my authentic couch.
I am just going buy some used books later that look ‘old’ and ‘historically relevant’.
I am just going to buy some humble shoes.

I am just 1 bro
I am just 1 bro searching for meaning
I am just 1 bro searching for meaning in our modern world.
I am just 1 bro creating art in my meaningful space
looking to transcend
evrythng

Previous meaningful/authentic apartments
http://www.hipsterrunoff.com/2008/11/my-authentic-life-is-full-of-authentic-props-in-my-authentic-apartment.html
http://www.hipsterrunoff.com/2008/12/the-meaningful-objects-in-my-apartment-make-me-who-i-am.html

Have yall bought anything new for your apartment lately?
Have yall created any new/relevant music lately using nontraditional/lofi/D.I.Y. recording methods?

We went 4 a walk
running away from my parents’ house
went to a manmade lake/drainage solution
that was constructed in the middle of the neighborhood.

We stripped nude
and took a bath within nature
putting on an Animal Collective album
using my portable iPod dock

The police were called
arresting us
police brutality

I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

Fuck. So miserable.
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

h8 my local high school
h8 all the ppl who value ‘fitting in’
and don’t ‘get’ what life is all about
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

Shit. Not even sure if I will ever break free
or if I will end up back in suburbia
since it is a cost-effective place to raise a child.
Shit. FUCK. help me, gawdbro.
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

So many houses
all looking the same
feel even sadder about poorer people who live in apartments
relieved that I have a spacious house
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

I wear Am Appy
and no 1 ‘gets’ me
except for gothbros
who wear ‘black AmAppy hoodies’ without realizing what the brand ‘means.’
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

I want 2
set this place on fire
I want 2
b me
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
I feel so fucking trapped
Fucking trapped in suburbia.

fuck. help me. plz. help me.
sprawl. opening up new Home Depot by where I live
since there are so many new neighborhoods [via contractors]
feeling sad about trees being cut down and shit like that
Wonder how I would feel if the built suburbia to look ‘more like the city.’
Going to walk more and ride my bike.
help

PHOTO VIA LOOKBOOK

Today I watched an MGMT music video
and listened to Animal Collective
and also listend 2 Passhy Pit
then cut up my favourite Am Appy shirt
and put some paint on my face

Went outside
all of my neighbors looked at me like I was from another planet
even though they usually give me that look
it made me happie
that I was challenging social norms
and saying ‘eff yall’ 2 them.

I was the most free spirited person
within a 100 mile radius
My mom and dad looked out the window
and looked disappointed

If only they knew
what I wanted 2 do
and the ideas inside of me
which can be converted to art
and be sold 4 a great deal of money

If only they knew
that I am not going to work for an insurance company
in a business park
in a yucky part of town in some cheesy city.

I am trapped in suburbia
1 day
I will get out of this hell hole.
1 day…

I am the next Marc Jacobs/ Jermbro Scott / winner from Projjers Runway.
What’s ur anti-suburbia [via anti-drug]?

Previous feelings of being trapped in suburbia
http://www.hipsterrunoff.com/t/trapped-in-suburbia-bro

All my life, I’ve been told what not 2 do.

No smoking.

No ghosts.

No running.

No fun.

No kidz allowed.

These days, I don’t even know who I am any more. I’ve been told what not 2 do, but I don’t actually know know TO DO. I don’t know how 2 create my own happiness. I know that America is the only country with ‘free will’, but I just have 2 many decisions 2 make about my future.

I want 2 be happie, but I don’t even know how 2 do that. I want 2 be in a meaningful relationship, but I also want 2 cum with as many ppl as possible 2 feel attractive. I want 2 be intelligent, but I also want to know a lot about ‘dumb shit.’ I want 2 be in a meaningful city, but I don’t know which 1. I want to be a part of something bigger than myself. I want 2 party, but I want to do something that changes the way that millions of ppl think/makes their lives’ better. I want to cure the swine flu. I want to invent something. I want to be an architect and designer. I want to play in the NBA Finals. I want to be the first African American President of the United States of America.

I want to do so much.
But I am an uncertain bro.
I don’t know what I stand for.
I don’t know what I stand against.

I am an Uncertain Bro.
Not sure what I am doing with my life.
Sorta wish I lived in Utopia
and had subconsciously Christian values

What do u want 2 do?

“I guess this is growing up.” – Blink 182 / TRV$ DJAM

Sometimes I see stuff
that I think looks meaningful
and wish I could take a picture of it
capturing the moment/meme forever

Every day I see thousands of images
and some of them are ‘meaningful’
or ‘get my attention’
and other ones are ‘meaningless’
and somewhat ‘forgettable.’

Sometimes I wonder
what is the most authentic photograph in the history of the entire world?

Is it a photo of a human?
Maybe a bro like Jesus
Abe Lincoln / Obama
OJ Simpson / Jimi Hendrix
Harvey Milk / Sean Penn as Harvey Milk
some anonymous bro
like a soldier or victim of war or something.
Maybe an animal
or some ppl ‘mating’ [via porn]

Is it a photo of an event
like a plane crashing into a building
or some sort of festival in a 3rd world country
or like some zany event like ‘the running of the bulls’

Or is it a picture of something that most people will never see
like some sort of entity that exists ‘in space’
or ‘a lunar/solar eclipse’
or a ’screen capture of something funnie.’

Or is it a party pic?
Like some bro with a ginger peen
Or some ’skank in a bathroom’
Or an entry level alt
or a super sweet 15 party 4 alts

Should we stop appreciating photos
and start to embrace ‘video’
Worried that I am missing out on ‘what makes a picture beautiful’
Might buy a huge DSLR or something
so that I can take HI RESOLUTION N00DZ
And license them to Am Appy 4 advertising

What is the most beautiful picture in the history of the world, yall?

Kinda just want to listen 2 Daft Punk
and ‘gain a shit load of weight’
by eating ‘bad ass foods’ that
‘taste awesome’ but are ‘probably killing me.’

I wish that there was some sort of ‘plus size’ solution
to look fashionable
and ’seem hip’ and ‘in the know’
But I think that part of ‘being fit’
means that ‘u care about being alive.’
wonder if Am Appy will come out with a ‘plus size’ line in 2k34
when their core market ‘gets all old and fat’

Just want to ‘be myself’
and like ‘chill’ and ‘go to Chili’s’ and ‘eat McDonalds breakfast’
and ‘go out to binge eat Mexican food’
and ‘eat lasagna’ like the popular cat Garfield

but ‘who will love me’ for ‘who I am’
It would take a strong person
to want to ‘cum on’/'cum with’
some1 who is ‘larger than life.’

Worried that my heart will stop
or something like that

R u happie with the way u look?
do u end up looking in the mirror for extended periods of time
thinking about the person u will be after u ‘get in shape’?
Did u ‘lose a lot of weight’/'gain a lot of weight’ recently? Why?

Hope u r okay.
want u 2 b happie with who u r
Best,
Carles

I walked in on my dad looking at himself in the mirror
naked
He did not know I was watching him
He looked analytical, somber, reflective, and sad

Lately, my father has been losing hair
gaining weight
getting older
Making more choices to make himself seem ‘more youthful’
but ultimately acting ‘dumb’ and ’self-destructive’

He cheated on my mom
It makes her sad
but I think he is insecure
Overheard him yell, “SHE MAKES ME FEEL YOUNG AGAIN.”
He also keeps asking me ‘what bands do u listen to?’
and bought tickets to a Kings of Leon concert

I think they just need 2 talk about getting older
and embrace that life ends
and that u need 2 surround urself with ‘people u authentically <3′
Not sure if it healthy to ‘feel sad’ about getting older

Maybe there is just a time in ur life
where u need to ’sit on the couch, turn on the TV, and stop sulking’
realizing that the ‘best’ days of ur life r behind u
and in the future u will only become more physically incompetent
and unable to keep up with the pace at which society/technology changes

It makes me sad that we’re all getting older
I just want to feel and look the same
as I did during ‘my prime’
Worried that my ‘prime’ has passed
or maybe I am not ‘happy’ during ‘my prime’

Want 2 be a tween again
‘but wouldn’t give up the knowledge I have now’
If only our parents knew
how easy their lives’ were
since they didn’t have to deal with stressful modern issues
like ’sexting’ and ’sexually transmitted diseases’ and ‘information overload’ and ‘memes’

Just want 2 b happie?

They only want u when ur seventween
when ur 21
ur all old and ur sexual organs are probs contaminated

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do u feel urself ‘getting older’?
R ur parents going through ‘a mid life crisis’?
R u afraid 2 get old cuz it means ur closer 2 dying?
Do u want to die of ‘old age’, ‘a disease’ or ‘a tragic accident that is a bloggable meme.’