HIPSTER RUNOFF

As yall know if u follow my twitter profile, I had been having a lot of trouble fitting in at my high school. There are tons of minorities, and most of the white people at my school are really into hiphop or sk8r punk culture. No one really 'gets' me, therefore, they make fun of me. It has been a really difficult time, since I end up eating lunch alone, and even had my Scion keyed in the parking lot. It's really hard to be a MiSUnDeRsToOd teenager. :-( ...but srsly...

N e ways, I was fortunate enough to be accepted to my local community's magnet school for science, engineering, the performing arts, design, technology, social science & the arts. Basically, I have the opportunity to be in the presence of some of the most free-spirited, inspiring teenagers who are dedicated to the art of learning. Our high school really understands what it takes to turn a young person into a thriving member of society, some1 who will contribute more than just becoming some 'dead-end-fuckface in a deskjob', slaving away at his cubicle, working for some bullshit company that does nothing to make the world a better place.

I'm excited that they provided us with Macbooks, the ultimate tool that true artists use to change the world. Whether it is Photoshop, Ableton, Adobe Premiere, or even Microsoft Office (Macintosh Edition), Macbooks truly give you an opportunity that mainstream computers can't. I honestly believe that if you ever find yourself sitting in front of a Dell Desktop, you should look into 'offing yourself.' You are probably trapped in some situation where you aren't helping the world, and working for some one who wanted mad discounts on tons of computers ordered in the bulk.

It feels good to be in a new school. It feels good to be surrounded with an infrastructure that will truly enable me to do great things with my life. This high school will enable me to get into basically any college that I want to attend. It feels good to attend a learning institution that understands they can get some sweet PR if they invest in trendy technology for their students, instead of running lame commercials like community+technical colleges usually do.

Do yall own a Dell Desktop?
Does ur employer provide u with Dell Desktop workstations?
Did yall go to some sort of 'magnet school'/'school for the arts'/hi-level private school/prep school?
Did u go to some sort of mnstrm big-ass public high school?
How did it make u the person that u r today?
Are laptops still 'alt' or it is better to have a desktop?
Is Windows 7 the new iPhone?
what were u like in hi school?

I think about the person I used to be, and the feelings that I used to feel, and sometimes 'feel ashamed'/'embarrassed.' I wish I could go back in time to high school, and rebrand myself. I feel like during high school, I hadn't 'seen enough of the world/humanity' and I hadn't created 'such a snarky outlook' on life. Things meant something, since I didn't know what a meme was, and I didn't feel so 'insignificant.'

If I could go back in time, I would have done more to create authentic happiness for myself during high school. I would have done more to get people to identify with me. I would have made more authentic artistic decisions, and shared more with more people. I would have one more to convince every 1 that I was 'really cool.'

If I could go back to high school, I would rebrand myself starting at the annual talent show.

I would have tried to host my talent show, and been 'a funnie bro' who was able to mimic popular movies from the past several years that most of my classmates had seen. I would have been a funnie bro.

If I could rebrand myself, I would choose a meaningful indie song to play to an audience. Even if they had never heard the song before, they would like it a little bit coming from the hearts/souls of their classmates. I would eventually be 'cooler' when mainstreamers discovered this band and thought 'damn... that bro sang this at my high school talent show 3.2 years ago.'

I might dress up like a 'cool band' and sing a 'song that sounds cool' and possibly brand myself that way.

I just want to bring a meaningful song into a nontraditional context. I want to challenge people's notions of education/fitting in/everything. I want to brand myself as a quirky post-poppunk quirky bro.

Unfortunately, my level of musicianship is not very high, so I might have to play more complex songs at a slower tempo.

I just want to go back in time, and let people know who I am. I feel like high school is the last opportunity in ur life to 'be happy' back before you go away to university/design school, and u realize that u might never get a chance to perform on a stage that you are 'dumb enough to believe' is 'the entire world.' Back during high school, you were young, and the campus was just a temporary stop on your rise towards greatness.

Then 1 day ur performing singer/songwriter covers in a coffeeshop in a college-y part of town, and u feel insignificant. Back in high school, there was no such thing as 'authenticity' because everything 'just was.' U could be bold, and u could 'feel things.' U could do drugs/drink for the first time, and be convinced that no1 had ever felt this way before.

U could take some1's virginity, and tell urself that ur 'making love' 2 some1. The only sad people in your life were your teachers, but back then, u thought that they were inspiring. Now the thought of them/the level of commitment required by ur 'good teachers' makes u feel like there is 'seriously something wrong with them.'

Just want to go back in time.
and get an erection
back in my prime
before I became older
and realized the responsibility
and miscellaneous feelings
that go along with sexual relations

Want to look at a tween ass
when we are both 'illegal' together
before she gains the freshman 15
and starts a life
with low metabolism
and expanding ass + beer bellie + thighs

Want to go back in highschool
and get a 'blowjob'
in the backseat of my mom's car
after being the star of the high school talent show

Might also play a team sport

Photo by thecobrasnake

I have always felt out of place in public high school. Just too many people. Too many regular people. And the people who 'look alternative' don't even 'get' what being alternative is about. Too many poors and coloureds who are from the apartment complexes that they recently built in my district

I went to a private school for a while thinking things would be better, and I think people are just too rich to be alt. Sort of like Mary Kate and Ashers. I also h8 wearing uniforms. I just want a place where I can be me. I want a place where people know what I am talking about. Tired of people pretending that Gossip Girl is authentic. Tired of meeting other people my age who listen to buzzbands from 2 years ago and tween rock.

In the fall, I will be attending the School for the Authenticification of the Young Alts of Upstate New York. Basically, it is a school that takes in alternative kids with potential, and teaches them how to take their alternative existences to the next level. The school is meant to prepare kidz for the rigorous social demands of high level alternative scenes. It is a battle for survival.

The posted picture shows the first graduating class on their senior trip. The majority of senior year is spent traveling across the globe, visiting every relevant city on this planet. In order to become an authentic alt, you must travel, and see people in their natural element. This is how you build your personal brand and personal fashion. This is how you learn 2 <3 life.

Here are a few of the aspects that make me excited about going to this high school:

• Weekend shuttle so kids don't drive drunk
• Teaches u about important stuff like bloghouse and technology
• Gives you 4 hours per day on campus to browse the internet and read blogs
• Sponsored by a vodka company
• Freegan meals
• Vending machines with alt beverages on campus (Sparks, PBR, Belvedere)
• Class that teaches you how to start a party pic site, from buying a DSLR to how to upload pix to the web
• Teachers are from yesteryear's indie buzz bands and some people who threw some sweet parties back when 'the scene' was just forming
• Strategies on thrifting / getting good deals at retail stores
• Dealing with ur mainstream past
• No mainstream events like prom, student council, or athletics
• What u should look for in a soulmate.
• Reading progressive books, magazines, blogs, and zines.
• There are no 'grades'

What do u think I should demand in my curriculum?
Do yall go to high school? Do you think this is a good idea?
Do u think it will help me get into a good college/ivy league / art school?
Should I go to a school for the arts/technology?
What will help me become the person I want to be?
What was ur high school experience like?

All I ever wanted to do was look like the beautiful people in the pictures on the internet. [via Crystal Castalt]

I recently saw a life changing public service announcement. It made me question 'who I am as a blog.'

I just realized that my blog might be a 'cyber bully', yall! Not sure if I should stop blogging, or maybe just focus on blogging about crappy mp3s + mediocre altNews bits. Sometimes I see people on the internet, and I think 'omg... they are s00 zany. I need 2 blog about them so that we can understand the modern state of altCulture.' However, maybe I am 'being a lil bit 2 harsh'... Maybe I am a cyber bully

I did a mini-research paper for my community college psychology & teacher certification course, and came up with this power point slide. Do yall 'get' what it means to be a bully in cyber space? Do yall realize how it's apparently 'cowardly' 2 be a cyber bully? Do yall realize that cyberbullying is responsible for 60% of tween tragedies [via school shootings and suicides]?

People on the internet are REAL, and whether or not their personal brands are authentic or not is none of my business. The internet shouldn't be a place where 'u come under fire 4 being urself'--it should be a safe haven, where any 1 can post a picture without having 2 fear 'being made fun of.' Just because ur 'hiding' 'behind a screen' doesn't make it any different than 'real life.' Why would u say something mean abt some1 on the net that u wouldn't say 2 their face? Internet feelings are the same as 'real life' feelings, yall. Do u agree? Am I making sense?

Wonder how I will raise my kids. Might not let them have the internet until they go away 2 college. Will probably print out the entire wikipedia for them instead of buying a set of Encyclopedias. Will let them have graphing calculators 2 play games on. Just don't want their lives' 2 fall apart b4 they even start. If I walked in on my 12 year old son/daughter vlogging, I would punish them swiftly (physically and emotionally). There is no reason 2 let ur kid have a computer before the age of 16--just sayin... be careful yall. There's more 2 raising a kid than 'feeding it' and 'changing diapers.'

N e ways... should I ban cyber bullying on HRO?
Is HRO an altCyberBully?
Am I a cyber bully if I talk about people without internet, like 'poor'/'3rd world' people?
Is Pitchfork a 'cyber bully' of musicians?
Are 'gossip blogs' a 'cyber bully' to celebs?
Is 'the newspaper' a 'paper bully' to events?
Am I a cyber bully 2 myspacers worth blogging about?
Are rich tweens cyber bullies 2 poor/coloured/fat tweens?
Is hotornot.com a cyberbully 2 ugly ppl?

Just trying 2 'get my head around' cyberbullying. What does it mean 2 u?

I just want
people to like me
both
in real life
& on the internet

If ur ever feeling 'alone' or 'bullied' on the internet, come to HRO as a safe haven, yall. We 'accept' every1. Kinda like an interracial church.