Sometimes I see stuff
that I think looks meaningful
and wish I could take a picture of it
capturing the moment/meme forever

Every day I see thousands of images
and some of them are ‘meaningful’
or ‘get my attention’
and other ones are ‘meaningless’
and somewhat ‘forgettable.’

Sometimes I wonder
what is the most authentic photograph in the history of the entire world?

Is it a photo of a human?
Maybe a bro like Jesus
Abe Lincoln / Obama
OJ Simpson / Jimi Hendrix
Harvey Milk / Sean Penn as Harvey Milk
some anonymous bro
like a soldier or victim of war or something.
Maybe an animal
or some ppl ‘mating’ [via porn]

Is it a photo of an event
like a plane crashing into a building
or some sort of festival in a 3rd world country
or like some zany event like ‘the running of the bulls’

Or is it a picture of something that most people will never see
like some sort of entity that exists ‘in space’
or ‘a lunar/solar eclipse’
or a ’screen capture of something funnie.’

Or is it a party pic?
Like some bro with a ginger peen
Or some ’skank in a bathroom’
Or an entry level alt
or a super sweet 15 party 4 alts

Should we stop appreciating photos
and start to embrace ‘video’
Worried that I am missing out on ‘what makes a picture beautiful’
Might buy a huge DSLR or something
so that I can take HI RESOLUTION N00DZ
And license them to Am Appy 4 advertising

What is the most beautiful picture in the history of the world, yall?

Kinda just want to listen 2 Daft Punk
and ‘gain a shit load of weight’
by eating ‘bad ass foods’ that
‘taste awesome’ but are ‘probably killing me.’

I wish that there was some sort of ‘plus size’ solution
to look fashionable
and ’seem hip’ and ‘in the know’
But I think that part of ‘being fit’
means that ‘u care about being alive.’
wonder if Am Appy will come out with a ‘plus size’ line in 2k34
when their core market ‘gets all old and fat’

Just want to ‘be myself’
and like ‘chill’ and ‘go to Chili’s’ and ‘eat McDonalds breakfast’
and ‘go out to binge eat Mexican food’
and ‘eat lasagna’ like the popular cat Garfield

but ‘who will love me’ for ‘who I am’
It would take a strong person
to want to ‘cum on’/'cum with’
some1 who is ‘larger than life.’

Worried that my heart will stop
or something like that

R u happie with the way u look?
do u end up looking in the mirror for extended periods of time
thinking about the person u will be after u ‘get in shape’?
Did u ‘lose a lot of weight’/'gain a lot of weight’ recently? Why?

Hope u r okay.
want u 2 b happie with who u r
Best,
Carles

when will HRO end?
should HRO have ended _ years ago?
When will all of the memes in the world be blogged?
What happens when the river of meme runs dry?
What happens when bloggers decided 2 unplug from the internet?
what happens if ur favourite blogger gets in a car crash 1 day, and u never hear from him/her again?

Everything dies–even humans
Every thing has a natural life.

Trends/fads/websites that are ‘kewl’ and ‘authentic’ can’t always stay what u think they are
u grow up. u turn into a different person who values different stuff
something that meant something 2 u at age 13 won’t mean as much 2 u at age 29, unless it is ‘Coca Cola’ or something like that

1 day, no1 will read pitchfork
1 day, no1 will read newspapers
1 day, no1 will eat red meat
1 day, no1 will be the same as they were 2day
1 day, Am Appy will be the official uniform provider of the NFL/poor people
1 day, ur parents will die, and u’ll feel ‘authentic sadness’ 4 the first time ever
1 day, HRO will not exist
u will still be alive. u will only read memes that are 140 characters or less
u will not feel a need 2 ‘get all social’ on the internet

Afraid of the world ending

Afraid. Afraid of losing everything.
Afraid of my site ‘dying.’
Afraid of losing sight of ‘what’s important in life.’
Scared of who I am finding out I am
Is the internet ‘my prison.’
Not sure if I have a healthy sense of self [via the internet]

1 day, we will go outside, and hold hands with our neighbors
and say ‘we finally did it,
we finally left Iraq
and got national health insurance
and fixed our educational system
and stopped honoring borders and turned the earth in2 1 chill-ass megacountry.’

Feel sad
when magazines died they got to ‘turn into websites’
but not even sure what ‘dying websites’
can turn into as a gimmick

We will be happy
‘Snark’ will be dead
Blogs will be dead
Advertisers will find a new medium to ‘overpay’ for advertising
No1 will have a computer larger than an iPhone
Twitter will have failed/been hacked and all personal memes will be erased

Good nite Moon
We had a good run.
‘The End.’ -a book

Best of luck,
Carles

We’ve come a long long way together,
Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,
I have to praise you like I should
-the fatboy slims, 2012 as the world ends

It makes me sad
That all humans in the developed world
must go to the grocery store / an ‘everything store’
in order to stay alive

Wish things were more natural
and we had to hunt and gather
instead of ‘gathering money’ [via job]
and then ‘bargain hunting’ [via coupons/manufacturer's discount]
and stuff like that which makes u realize
just how ‘middle-class’ ur parents are

I go out to Target / Wal Mart
Trader Joe’s / Whole Foods /
Local low-end grocery store
and I buy ‘groceries’
Makes me feel less unique
because I see every one there
rich or poor

But the poor usually buy stuff that’s ‘bad 4 u’
and I am fortunate enough to buy
stuff that’s ‘better 4 u’

Feel like a ‘fish out of water’
when running the errands that are necessary 2 staying alive
because I have built my personal brand around
’seeming like I have nothing 2 do with ppl
who have 2 perform trivial tasks 2 stay alive’

I want to be some1 who seems ‘young’
and ‘out of touch’ with ‘real life’ and ‘real errands.’
and the modern ’struggle’ 2 stay alive and build a ‘happy family’

h8 ’shopping’ for stuff that ‘isn’t cool’
would rather go 2 the mall / online shopping
prefer 2 buy stuff that u have 2 buy with a credit card
instead of stuff that ‘fits in2 ur budget.’

I wish I could be a tween again
an idea of sex that was so pure, innocent and raw
hard penis and wet vaginas
Ready to make a mistake
that we might not have been emotionally ready for
in the name of ‘love’
back before people grew up and their feelings
because ’so real’ and ‘crushable’

If I could be a tween again
I would do a lot of things differently
cuz of all the bad ass technology.

Previous wishing I could be a tween again
http://www.hipsterrunoff.com/2008/12/i-wish-they-had-macbooks-when-i-was-a-tween-new-hro-gimmick.html

Going away 2 college.
s0 f*ckng scared.
I have become a pretty popular and respected bro
at my high school

But I will throw all of that away
and go to college at a prestigious university
located within an authentic city
not just the state school within 100 miles of my home town.

My mom will go college dorm room shopping
with me
at IKEA, the Container Store, and Target
and we will get into fights about our vision of the room
(Don’t want it 2 look ‘too dormy’
Want it 2 be an authentic space.’

I hope my dorm room is the popular room on my floor
and that my roommate evolves into the best bro of my life.
We will join relevant on-campus groups
and also integrate into our local community
really ‘caring’ about the issues within our collegetown/region
more than we care about global issues

Maybe we will organize protests against our university
and chill inside of the cafeteria
liveblogging and twittering the whole experience
until the mainstream police barges in with guns

Photo via NYU Local

Might even volunteer to wake up early
and paint some stuff
or build some houses
then ‘party’ with the people who I bonded with
as the sun hits our white skin

I will become a new person
in college
in my dorm room
lurking facebook for girls from my classes who
I can pin my hopes and dreams to

One day I will move off campus
and live in a chill ass apartment
that smells like marijuana and body odor
that has a mix of ‘chill’ and ‘bad ass’ parties
becoming a relevant location in the local scene
It has a ‘bad ass’ flat screen that my roommates’ parents gave us.

Dirty bathrooms

Sometimes I will study
staying up all night
To do ‘okay’ on a test
and pass all of my classes
Proud of my 2.7-3.75 GPA because ‘I put like nooo effort into it.’

We will ‘party.’
We will be college students.
We will have fun.
We will find bros.
We will eat all of our meals on campus with
a relevant meal plan program

I will stay in college for _ years.

___________________
Do yall want 2 go 2 college?
Where do yall wanna go?
What do yall wanna learn?
R u in college?
What is/was ur fave part about being in college?

SXSW is funnie
because everything is a ‘planned surprise’
and everything is ‘free’ but ‘not really’
and everything is ‘exciting’ but ‘predictable’
and everything is ‘viral buzz’ but rlly just ‘marketing’

Festivals and conferences start out ‘being authentic incubators of cool culture’
but then the mainstreamers think they can participate
immersing themselves in ‘cutting edge cultural events’
slowly causing the fabric of what made something great
2 unravel

Woodstock 99
SXSW 2010
Pitchfork Festival 2015
Lollapalooza 200_
Coachella 200_
Austin City Limits 2005

They say that once a Wireless Telecommunications Provider
is a prominent sponsor of your entity
then u have ‘made it’
but u will soon lose what once made u so great.

Everything has a ‘useful life’
Kinda sad abt that

U wish u were here
hanging out with me
and being surrounded by beautiful ideas
buzzed conversations about dreams of ‘making millions’
from a simple idea that catches on
and improves the online lives’ of millions of people
but more importantly ‘makes me a lot of money’

I never want 2 go home
I never want 2 return 2 my desk job
I want to feel important
I want to feel talented
I want to contribute 2 society by building technology
But also appreciate artsy things like film and music
This will be the most meaningful week of my middle-aged life.
I spent the last week RSVPing to over 400 events

I will dine on SXSWestern Egg rolls.

I look back on my life
and think about critical crossroads
and ask myself questions
about what makes me ‘alternative’
in relation to society.

s00 much stuff ‘made me’
and I am still trying to ‘understand’ how ‘I’ happened

Did my parents love me?
Did my parents make over $100K?
Did my parents drive a minivan?
Did my parents allow me to make my own fashion choices at a young age?
How much did I want to ‘be accepted’?
How ’seriously’ did I take ’social groups’ in middle+high school environments?
Did I ‘have a gf/bf’ at a young age?
Did my parents try to construct the foundation of my self-image ?
Did I grow up in a city
Am I an ‘outlier’?
Should I have read more books as a child?
Did my parents get divorced?
Did my parents let me listen to rap, even though I lived in a white context?
Did I ‘experiment’ with drugs and alcohol ‘before I was ready to handle it’?
Did I ‘make fun of poor kids’ without knowing why I was ‘better than them’?
Did my parents secretly hate minorities, teaching me not to respect them & only expecting them 2 ‘bring me chips and salsa b4 a meal’?
Was I ’sad’ about the OJ Simpson verdict?
Did my parents/me take ‘youth sports’ too seriously?
Did I have a sibling who was better/less respected than me?
Did my parents establish solid relationships with teachers, or did they just ‘drop me off’ at school?
Did I have a computer when ‘the internet’ was first invented?
As I grew up with a computer, have I been unable to use it for anything ‘productive’ and has this impacted my ability to contribute to my employer?
Do I know how 2 get vulnerable, or am I just like my [parent who h8s emotions]?

As I grow older,
I feel like I have more in common with more ppl
realizing that we had the same childhood
and that we are all ‘kinda mediocre’
but searching for differentiating gimmicks.

////Makes me kinda sad

Sometimes I wish my differentiating gimmick was something
that was both ‘beneficial to society’ and ‘had a salary of over $250K per year’
but I’m probably being unreasonable.
Not sure if I would rather ‘find the cure for cancer’ or ‘be in a relatively popular band.’
Would probably have to make an ‘excel spreadsheet’ of pros+cons

Just glad I’m not a mainstreamer
and satisfied by the goals which have forced me to be ‘alternative.’
Don’t want to ‘have a family’ and ‘live in suburbia’
Don’t want to ‘go 2 church every Sunday.’
I think I would enjoy stuff like ‘falling out of love with my wife after she had 2 kids’
and ‘resenting my kids for being lil ass holes’

Do yall ever wish that u could be like that movie “Eternal Sunshine of the Ace Ventura”
and erase ur past
and 4get about U, Me & Every1 We Know?

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I –
I got on my all-terrain vespa and Created My Own Route
and I ‘got lost’ but told myself that ‘finding my way’
created a journey which was meaningful

The alt route
The alt route
The alt route
I am chilling on it.
r u?

Current Music: Robert Frost – 2 Roadz (Grizzly Bear vs Animal Collective Relevant in 2k9 Remix)
Current Mood: Sad abt life

h8 living in suburbia.
want something more.
want something more.
want something more.
want something more.
want something more.
want something more.
than this life that my parents have forced me into.

Sometimes I feel happy
when I make a good grade in AP English
and I know that I will eventually go to Columbia/NYU/Yale
but it sucks to be here
at a public high school
knowing that all of these ass holes
just want to go to a state university
attend business school
and get married

Wish that high schools had more than just ‘honors’ courses
because even dumb ppl are in honors courses just to raise their GPA
wish they talked 2 us
and found out about what we wanted 2 do
h8 standardized testing
and how it has limited my educational growth

If only they had some sort of class
that taught us how to blog
and taught us how to screen print on tshirts
and taught us how to start an eCommerce store
and taught us how to crochet
and taught us how to twitter
and taught us how to photoshop
and taught us how to make blog/tumblr layouts
and taught us how to make party fliers
and taught us about everything in between
like human2human interactions

I want to start an online site that isn’t a blog
since blogs are dead
but I want the site to be more ‘fun’ and ‘less linear’
and I want my fan base to be authentic
looking for something else out of their online life

But here I am
trapped in suburbia
a teen
Alone in my room

I attempt to make my space as meaningful as possible
this attic
full of records, picture books, and asbestos
The good times are killing me
The bad times are killing me
The asbestos may or may not be killing me